The little secrets.
If
I would say you are hiding secrets. Like even 'your best friends and love of
your life doesn't have a clue about it', kind of secrets.
Would
you agree to that? Of course, you
wouldn't.
What
kind of question is that? Right?
But
you know all too well, you have one of those secrets which you do want to tell
someone. 'Someone close, someone who would understand', but you
know you just can't, because of some
messed up obvious reasons of yours.
It
is complicated. I KNOW!
You
think about those secrets at least once in a while. Maybe not intentionally but
they just pop up in your head even if you don’t want to remember them at all. Even
though it doesn’t matter anymore but you just can’t let them out either.
So
when I asked you in the beginning, you would definitely deny at the very moment.
DUH! SO OBVIOUS.
EVERYONE HAS THEIR OWN SECRETS. No judgments by the way.
I
want to talk about the fact how easy it for us to deny the existence of
something that was (or maybe still is) so important to us that we still keep it
as a secret. Don’t you sometimes want to tell the way you feel about all this without
any judgments and misunderstandings? The fact that you can’t really do it, is because
you don’t want to hurt the people you love and care about, by simply telling your secret, or you don’t want
them to think less of you, or maybe because you might feel vulnerable just by the
thought of other person knowing your darkest secret.
Telling
your deepest secrets would be like allowing someone to know a part of you which
you have kept at bay for so long.
But
you might mostly choose the easy way out of this and keep your scary secrets and
your thoughts aside. And finally at the end you chose to never touch them
again. NO SURPRISES THERE RIGHT?
But It’s okay to be confused in a situation like
these. I know it’s a tough call to make. Your mind revolves around so many
hypothetical scenarios. And with all that, you have to decide whether to trust someone
with your secret or not.
For
those in doubt, let me just say it’s
okay!
I
never fully understood what should we do about it either and most importantly,
why? Isn’t hiding is much easier than actually facing the truth.
IT IS. Isn’t it?
But
think about it and ask yourself, are you really going to live a life where even
‘love of your life’ only knows a part of you? What about your remaining hidden personality
which nobody knows about? Yet, You want to hide the truth and that too, by your own
free will.
AND
Expect
to have no consequences of it at all.
Does
it sound too dramatic? Because someday it will be! Yes, surely not today and
not tomorrow but SOMEDAY!
You
have to move on someday from your past to live your present. And to sever the
ties of past, you have to let go of the part of your life which you had tucked
away in some corner of your mind and which now you call your little secrets.
Nobody
said it’s the easiest way but it’s the only way.
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Hmm.. this got me thinking.
ReplyDeleteEvery one have a secret, it might depend how what the secret is, to you it might not count as big deal but to the next person to you it is.
When it comes to hiding part of your personality from other then I will have to say that it fear of been vulnerable to the next person of appearing weak or just like to be mysterious that all
This post really resonates with me. At times in my life I've had to hugely hide parts of my personality to be able to be accepted for who I am. People can be overly invested in you being what they want you to be. I've sacrificed very close family relationships in order to be myself.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry that you had to sacrifice your family relations for you to find yourself. But at the end you truly accepted yourself. Now I think that's an achievement as a person.
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